Why oh Why?!

Hi-ya...

It's Sunday....& juz stayed home today nothing to do!!Damn it!Though today i feel so different...I feel so lonely.But i don't know why?!It started all in the morning i was awaken from my sleep when this mattress from the top of my cupboard fell on me but it mostly hit my head,then in the afternoon felt so empty i didn't even know what i was doing,i was looking for something to do but at last nothing in the end.Then went out to search for my kitty,Jovious,He went missing for straight three days so if anyone has seen a kitten persian ginger in colour please return him to me...i seem to have lost my place without him.Then my dad had to go jamming so he asked me if i wanna folo but i didn't seem to answer him...I DON'T KNOW WHY?!Oh god!!At last he went without me(it's been two sessions that i didn't folo my dad jam,and dat's not me.Usually i wanna folo)Now im sitting here and blogging,listening to a sad song from the used,on my own.There's a lot of questions in my head though now....Why didn't i folo my dad?!Why do i keep regretting every move i make?!Why must the big chance slip?!I keep blaming myself peeps,is this like a part of life?!Are we suppose to feel this way?!