Just when i though that i got a grip,i didn't

I don't know where im standing now. Im really unstable nowadays sometimes i don't know what im doing and all it takes is for me to hit myself back into reality. I don't know why im doing this sinful things that i've never done before,talking smack abt someone is seriously sinful if the person u're talking about doesn't know...Even if the things u talk about is true it's really mean if that person doesn't know u're talking about her behind her...Im going to discuss this matter with her SOON.. sometimes this words are true:

I just wanna break you down so badly
Cuz i trip over everything you say
I just wanna break you down so badly
In the worst Way!
-Taking back sunday(Make Damn sure)

That is what i think of doing to her but as i think back i must treat people the way i want them to treat me,RESPECT! Eventhough she's not, it's PLAIN RUDE if i don't! And a thinking like dat gets me hit into reality back. At times like these,The used and escape the fate songs are good!

Just when i think i know,understand and adapt to certain people,not long i lost it! Im standing on a line where reality and fantasy lurks but just when i got a grip of myself in reality,i slipped! Just when i got a grip of my mind ,i lost it and at certain times i don't even know what im doing,at times my mind just doesn't think of the consequence before doing it...

I haven't lost anything except my mind
Except a thousand confessions that you will not find
I try to take off my head sometimes
Because i can't escape the memories
-The used(Empty with you)

Cause everything that you say
And everytime you stray
I see that now you have changed
And im the one you blame!
-Escape the fate(On to the next one)